Dear Loco,

Dear Loco, I’ve felt both so supported recently, and not known how to quite believe it fully. I got in touch with Rachmalai, and she’s been really supportive.We’ve been like lighthouses for each other, calling each other to shore. Who’d have thought?!Anu and Mana and Azur and mum all forming part of this little cocoon…

Dear Loco, Mum told me something heavy today, and I just need to get it off my chest. I asked her about her sexual abuse expecting some very benign answer, and then she said “I don’t really remember clearly what happened. I remember going out in my favourite green silk salwar Aunty Irene got me.…

Dear Loco, Luchador has been such a wonderful energy in my life. Thank you for this gift. He cups my face gently and nuzzles his face against mine. He brings play and happy baby energy. He just rubs himself against me and cuddles. He’s so wonderful. He’s fiesty which gives me great comfort that he…

Dear Loco, I was watching Chimp Empire and found it utterly fascinating what their social hierarchy is like. I really liked the grooming bit. The male bonding and how it happens was also interesting. It is also excessively soothing with the very sexy voice of Mehershala Ali.

Dear Loco, I’ve always been focused on the past as a sort of dark place, and consistently looked to the future to build my fantasies. And in doing so – I’ve looked upon that girl, that woman I used to be as something to be erased in search of new and improved versions of myself.…

Dear Loco, Apparently, the brain needs to designate black and white roles in situations of crisis. Good or Bad. When you grow up in an environment of constant crisis (or it’s painted that way anyway), you’re always in “fight” or “flight”. Your body is almost chemically induced or trained or addicted to this response. And…

Dear Loco, Today Anu brought up the idea that somebody who would be in my life in the future would not have known you. It hurt. I hop3jkiu – This was Lucha. I hope one day I can do justice to the memory of you. A part of me tells one story about a great…

Dear Loco, I go back there, and I bring a death stare you would be PROUD of. She’s IMMEDIATELY off-kilter. She leads with “You’re early!”. GUILTING! I just stare at her. She asks me how I’ve been, I say “I’m tired”. She fumbles her way through that whole therapy. She’s uncomfortable, and trying very hard.…

Dear Loco, I’m sorry for not being here for sometime. You’re here with me, and you know everything. I’m feeling all my feelings. I’m feeling my way to an inner self that is my rock. 🧿 So much has happened. I went to therapy, and it was 🚩🚩🚩🚩🚩🚩🚩🚩🚩 1. Her phone beeped throughout and she…

Dear Loco, Stop letting everyone into your space,Giving them a place,to lie their burdens. Your sanity is malnourished,cause you too busy serving,sympathy to everybody else but your own psyche. And now you might be,less likely,to save the world if you too busy fighting,divine timing,by disguising,those wounds you have yet to heal. How does it feel…