Dear Loco,

Dear Loco, It’s funny how much import we as a society give to “Logic” and rational thinking because it is the very thing that fails me every single day. Can’t fight fire with fire. You get told BS stories as a kid like “Black cat crosses your path spit thrice on the side of the…

Dear Loco, ..is the process of cutting the metaphorical umbilical cord. There are, apparently, 3 stages: It’s a bit of a dark, damp cave but it’s mine, it seems. All mine.

Directed by the moon,Moulded by earth.As the ocean, so am I. Spreading lightning,Observe no shine of my own.As the ocean, so am I. Cradling life within,Nourishing life without.As the ocean, so am I. Hunger for fire,A thirst I can’t quench. Mortal enemies,can we part as friends? As the ocean, so am I.

Dear Loco, I met Sanjana today. I realised there’s so much sadness from all the things left unsaid from so many past injuries. I, also, realise nobody can meet your needs – you have to meet yourself first! At the same time, talking to her was so nice. Being able to be vulnerable and say…

Dear Loco, What a day! I got off the flight and worked, and then went to meet Anu and Mana. Got very triggered. Communicated. Went to that Book Club, held my own. Felt nice. You, of course, know about the kerfuffle in between. 🙄 It was a lot for somebody who had only slept 2…

Dear Loco, I had the best time, all things considered (menstruation pains, ugh! Random fact – mum said her painful periods stopped after she had a kid!). It was really relaxing to have a nice room to myself, to have great service (being tended to is nice!) and a hot steaming shower. I bathed like…

Dear Loco, I loved you so much – it gave me joy, it set me free, it broke my heart and it pieced it back together. I still love you. A lot. I’ve been moving through life with so much fear, and the desire to control all the variables so I can feel less of…

Dear Loco, I’m kind of excited for a change of scene, kind of excited to be doing this with my mum. Grateful Luna has had ALL her babies and I don’t have to worry about being away. I miss Chuchu, I still hear his “ew, ew” when these new kittus meowl. I kept trying to…

Dear Loco, All this work I want to do, feels so hard sometimes. I want to be “securely attached”, I want to come from a place of “I’m okay, You’re okay”. I’ve had these tools for nearly a decade now, I want to put them in to practice. It’s the demise of the ego, it’s…

Dear Loco, As of this minute, we have 4 Taurus babies. 😀