Dear Loco,

I remember Sumedha once asked me “if a seed felt pain when it was germinating”. As the radicle and hypocotyl break open the exterior of the seed, to reach the light and touch the earth, does it hurt?

I wonder sometimes why Luna’s one biological imperative has to be such a painful act? Why nature should define that the most important job we’re driven to do on earth be so painful. Does that not seem counter-productive? Or is it to invoke a feeling that it was well-fought for, and when you’ve fought for something you value it?

A gamut of emotions available to “all of God’s creatures”. I’ve seen Luna grieve, play, experience joy, pain, irritation, anger, contentment and peace. But when she had that accident, all she did was sit down and stoically purr herself back to health. Completely calm. If I had an accident, I’d have PTSD or something. Is this the cost of a bicameral mind? Is it worth it? I was so jealous of Luna in that moment, her life so simple.

Pain is inevitable, suffering is optional“, they say (don’t ask me who)
Victor Frankl says, ““Between stimulus and response there is a space. In that space is our power to choose our response. In our response lies our growth and our freedom.”

So, what is behind Door 2?

For me, today, it is remembering I am loved unconditionally. So, thank you to my body that loves me enough to live to fight another day despite my ill-treatment of it. To you who loved me at my worst, and stuck around for my best. To this earth that gives and gives.

Finally, I’ll end with a prayer:
🌥️ grant me the serenity
to accept the things I cannot change;
courage to change the things I can;
and wisdom to know the difference.

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