Dear Loco,

Through many dangers, toils and snares
I have already come,
‘Tis grace has brought me safe thus far
And grace will lead me home.

Amazing Grace

So much happened in 2022, and it’s following months:
– We went to Goa
– I was broke, but then I got a job
– We moved homes
– I made new friends, I had better community
– You passed
– Luna got pregnant
– Luna gave birth to two babies
– One passed

I think about those two days of Luna being in labour, and wish I had more faith everything would be alright. Or at least that I’d handled the same situation with more grace.

I say “Grace” now but I’m not sure I know what it means, entirely.

All I knew was I did not want to go through with that c-section. It was fear, exhaustion, a fight, a prayer. Was it also grace? I did eventually find home, if home is a safe space. Luna was safe, kittu was safe and I was happy.

And Fe gave “us” so much even if his brief stint in our lives. Like you did.

This much grace is enough, no?

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